the downside of being single
it might never occur to you that being single may not be the best position you wanted your feet to be standing right now. it may be because of the fact that you are free of doing anything and everything you want without the usual poking of the conscience appearing and reappearing to you whenever you think of a magnificent scheme you think is worth him/her not knowing… the lair at which every taken individual takes of risking everything for some wordly pleasures.[whatever you prefer to think about what i meant about it]… hey no offense there’s tons of tons of things you can do when your single, the never ending gimicks, the infinite time for yourself and whatever freaky things you do with your time, but what are the downside of being alone? being like one i can share only a glimpse of little things i feel, now that i am single: Chapter one: The endless nights that you are alone.. for guys like me everyone wants to have fun when i mean fun it meant one heck of a ride but in the end of the day you always wanted somebody beside you, who you would tuck-in-bed. the same girl you would kiss goodnight and wake everymorning to surpise with a simple breakfast in bed. [naks] pero hinde naman lagi ngyayari ito diba? minsan baliktad ang kaso ikaw pa ang pinaghahanda ng misis mo which of course turn out to be better for you right? Chapter two: the regrets alam mo ba yung mga what ifs? those are the millions of things that keeps bugging you day and night thinking what if ganito or ganyan… most oftenly nights [thanx to medical drugs like zyprexa i could still sleep 8hrs a day, thank you] yung tipong napapaisip ka what if kami pa? , what if di ko siya iniwanan, pano kaya kami kung kami pa, kung nandito lang sanan siya! , yung tipo bang nasa isang scenerio ka which if you would have one person in the world to share it with you would want to share it with her.. like sitting in the sand in the amber sunset, tipong scene in the rooftop with the full moon… yung bang mga ganon Chapter three: the never ending questions of feebling individuals who keeps harrassing you to tell what happens and so on and so fort: eto yung mga tao na di pa nakukuntento sa sa sagot mo na oo sa tanong nila kung break na kayo? it goes without saying na may kasunod itong tanong na baket? pano ng yari?! at hindi lang yon dadagdagan pa nila yan ng pangonsensya sayo na ang tanga tanga mo [alam mo na nga na tanga ka pinalalandakan pa amp!] Chapter four: the emptiness of glance, this is the part where mapalingat ka lang sa kawalan gumugulong na ng pahapyaw ang luha mo sa ilong pababa sa labi, yung tipong nalalasahan muna kung anong flavor ng kulangot mo mixed with your salty tears "of course"! tipong dadaanan mo yung mga lugar kung saan kayo nagkakilala, kung saan mo unang nakita yung mga matang kagaya ng kanya, yung tipong makakasalubong mo yung mga kaibigan nya di mo alam kung anong sasabihin mo, yung bang mga tipong ganon Chapter five: the songs, kahit saan ba naman naririnig mo yung kanta mo para sa kanya, pupunta ka lang kila mang pogs at bibili ng candy maririnig mo yung awit mo para sa kanya maalala mo yung inalay mong kanta para lang sa pinaka mahal mong princessa…. hay buhay nga naman kapag nagiisa ka [sigh] Chapter six: The sight of her unforgetfull face: the sight of an angel, yung makakasulubong mo siya sa daan at masasabi mo nalang sa sarili [hint:dapat pabulong] baket mo ako iniwan! huhuhuhu, yung bang ganon, makikita mo pa siya na sobrang ganda at makikita mo ang sarili mong stress at depress dahil sa mga ngyayari sayo… haayyyy buhayyyy! pero di mo naman siya kayang iwasan kasi yun lang ang chance mo na makita siyang muli diba? kaya sulitin ang pag kakataon hwekhekhek! Chapter seven: The denial stage, yung tipong ayaw mong aminin sa sarili mo na tapos na kayo wala na, zero, adios amigos at alam mo naman kung anong mgyayari kapag nalaman ng ibang tao na wala na kayo, para bang naglagay ka ng isang butil ng bigas sa kulungan ng manok sa sumalya-cayio_kill!
May 11th, 2007 at 1:17 am
easy lang. view the glass half full, as i always say. we cannot help who we love. we have no control whatsoever over such things. yet it happens, and that opens for us a world of choices. what can you do about it? watch it unravel before your eyes? or act upon it to make it right? if the universe commands it to be, then good for you. if not, why wallow in depression? it would not do you any good. remember to first attend to yourself. fix yourself first. everything else will follow. if you need an ear to let it out, mine is available. i dont need to hear the details. andito lang ako otay? (~,^)